“The principle, basis, living foundation of Samadhi (Ecstasy) consists of a previous ‘Introspective Knowledge’ of oneself; our introversion is indispensable during in-depth meditation. We should begin by profoundly knowing the mood we are in before any mental form appears in the intellect. It is urgent to comprehend that every thought that surges in the Mind is always preceded by pain or pleasure, happiness or sadness, like or dislike.”
~Samael Aun Weor~
Following on from the post about labelling the thoughts, we can begin to distinguish between thoughts and emotions. Its interesting to take some time to consider whether a thought triggers an emotion or an emotion triggers a thought.
The quote above indicates that our thoughts are driven by an underlying feeling or predisposition. If we see a cup on the bench top, what happens? Do we feel immediately grumpy followed by the thought, someone used a dish without washing it? Did the thought of someone not washing the dish trigger the grumpy feeling, or did the dislike hit us and then the thought form follow a split second after? Perhaps the cup triggered the desire to have a cup of coffee and the following thought was, I think I’ll have a cup of coffee, now where is the plunger? Did the thoughts about preparing the cup of coffee come first or did the desire for coffee hit us immediately. With further self study we will realise that within our subconscious we have a store house of pre-conditions and desires, just waiting to have the opportunity to express.
To put our body into activity, emotions serve as a much bigger driver than a thought process. We may think that we should get more exercise, because it will be good for our health and make us trim. Yet we have resistance to this, due primarily to laziness (a desire to be sedentary) so we let opportunities to exercise pass us by. But, perhaps one day we notice the boy we have had our eye on has joined the gym and works out in the morning. Now we get up early with no trouble and race to the gym because a desire is driving us, instead of the intellect.
While we watch our thoughts in meditation, see if there is a hint of like or dislike, pain or pleasure, happiness or sadness, behind it. Don’t think about what we observe, simply observe it. Let’s get to know ourselves through self-observation, with no judgement. Little by little.
To have a deep meditation – moving towards Samadhi – ecstasy, we need to not only quieten the mind, but to let go of any emotion or desire that binds us.